how do i put it across to you.




its not that i want to be dao.
its not that i like being called dao.
its not that i am dao.




im not okay?
honestly.





i always thought that it wouldnt matter even if i said hi or not.
cos,
i thought you wouldnt really bother much.
like you have so many other friends.
what difference would it have made even if i do say hi. or at least smile.
but yet, i still do.
im sorry if that came across to you as dao-ness.
but i really had no intentions of being dao to you.
why should i.



maybe i might be afraid.
not of you.
but of other people AROUND you.
which is why sometimes i dun dare look up.
at you.




but thats really not the case.
you know how much i miss talking to you?
face-to-face.
and everytime i want to,
i cant.
but just so you know, i DO try.
when i see you that is.
but i know the chances are always a million to one.
which is quite..sad. yeah.



im sorry if i like sorta hurt or offended you in any way by me looking down at the floor.
or being dao to you.
i really didnt mean to.
i didnt even realise i was being dao. yeah.



i wish i could read your mind sometimes.
at least i'd know how your thoughts run.




you're special.
like the stars that shine in the night sky.
you're special.
so dun ever question that and ask why.




i miss you you know?
LOTS.

see the girl?

she's trying very hard to hold back those tears.

she's sorry.

and so am i.